The one thing that really did resonate with me from TFIOS was the whole “grenade” thing. I’ve really always felt like that. Like one day I’ll blow up and hurt all the people closest to me, except in my case it’ll be my fault. I never really knew how to put it into words. Not wanting to get close to people because I’ve always felt that I’m a “terminal” case… And when I read that I really felt it hard.
I was born with my dad’s illness and it took him from me, and one day it’ll probably take me too. And the less people in my life to have to survive that emotional wreckage the better.